Take my Hand Lord


Depression is when you hate everyone around
Depression is when you don’t want to make a sound
Depression is when all you want to do is cry
Depression is when you feel like you’re dying inside
Depression is when you thoughts wonder all the time
Depression is when you can’t sleep even though you’re tired
Depression is when you don’t want to go on
Depression is when you can’t stop shaking outside
Depression is when you hide who you are
Depression is when you put on a mask to hide what you feel
Depression is when you feel weak all the time
Depression is when you give in to everything around
Depression is when you don’t care what happens anymore

Depression is just another day in my life

jess jayne

Super depress ako last week(until now), can’t believe na mangyayari sa akin ang mga bagay na un in that week. Ang dami nangyaring Revelation of secret, betrayal of friends, heart to heart talk, crying over2x (like river talaga). Parang galit na galit sa akin si GOD (sorry Lord). So hirap talaga, it’s killing me inside (buti nalang buhay pa ako). But then need to move on, I’ve learn my lesson that week… those tiring days… those stupid nights… ahahaha… I’m so stupid sometimes talaga… next time dapat carefull na ako in my every actions and the words I say (but I’m human and not perfect). So if ever meron akung nasaktan, merong nagalit, at may nagagalit pa rin sa akin… I’M SORRY!!!! I’M REALLY REALLY SORRY!!! Hope you understand. I’m not perfect guys… I’m just being stupid, pathetic, useless and being true to myself (what I feel)… so I’m really sorry!!!! … and hope you understand.. I need space to breath… time to heal…(oh diba drama ko…) . If I could do something to change the past sana ginawa ko na di ba, if sana totoo ang time machine I would never let that incident happen, I won’t do stupid and careless things, and I should stop that stupid heart…


“Every evening I turn my worries over to God.  He’s going to be up all night anyway.”
“God understands our prayers even when we can’t find the words to say them. “




How can I trust someone if that someone has broken my trust,
My heart is empty,
Its cold as ice,
As it reach to break,
It leaks out of water,
That water drips and slips away,
That trust,
That moment,
All within those you have broken,
I may not trust you or your friends but that don’t mean we can’t be friends,
Just friends without that trust,
You have to work your trust with me,
You have to make me understand why should I ever trust you again,
You have to repair that broken trust,
You have to work hard,
That don’t mean be hateful towards me,
Just show me that I can trust you once more.

jesse swigart

Now tell me how would i trust you again…? if you broken my trust not even once but twice…

Mom’s Eye

Mom’s Eye

My mom only had one eye. I hated her…. She was such an embarrassment. .

She cooked for students & teachers to support the family.

There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me.

I was so embarrassed.

How could she do this to me?

I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school one of my classmates said, “EEEE, your mom only has one eye!”

I wanted to bury myself.

I also wanted my mom to just disappear..

I confronted her that day and said, ” If you’re only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don’t you just die?”

My mom did not respond….

I didn’t even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger.

I was oblivious to her feelings.

I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.

So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.

Then, I got married.

I bought a house of my own.

I had kids of my own.

I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts, Then one day, my mother came to visit me.

She hadn’t seen me in years and she didn’t even meet her grandchildren.

When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited.

I screamed at her, “How dare you come to my house and scare my children!”


And to this, my mother quietly answered, “Oh, I’m so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,”

And she disappeared out of sight.

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.

So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.

After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.

My neighbors said that she died.

I did not shed a single tear.

They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

“My dearest son,

I think of you all the time. I’m sorry that I came to your house and scare your children.

I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.

But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.

I’m sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.

You see…….. when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.

As a mother, I couldn’t stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.

So I gave you mine.

I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.

With all my love to you,
Your mother.



Dear wife:

I’m writing you this letter to tell you that I’m leaving you forever. I’ve been a good man to you for 7 years & I have nothing to show for it.

These last 2 weeks have been hell.

Your boss called to tell me that you quit your job today & that was the last straw. Last week, you came home & didn’t even notice I had a new haircut, had cooked your favorite meal & even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers. You ate in 2 minutes, & went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You don’t tell me you love me anymore; you don’t want sex or anything that connects us as husband & wife. Either you’re cheating on me or you don’t love me anymore; whatever the case, I’m gone.

Your EX-Husband

P.S. don’t try to find me. Your SISTER & I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life!


Dear Ex-Husband

Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter.

It’s true you & I have been married for 7 years, although a good man is a far cry from what you’ve been. I watch my soaps so much because they drown out your constant whining & griping Too bad that doesn’t work. I DID notice when you got a hair cut last week, but the 1st thing that came to mind was ‘You look just like a girl!’ Since my mother raised me not to say anything if you can’t say something nice, I didn’t comment. And when you cooked my favorite meal, you must have gotten me confused with MY SISTER, because I stopped eating pork 7 years ago. About those new silk boxers: I turned away from you because the $49.99 price tag was still on them, & I prayed it was a coincidence that my sister had just borrowed $50 from me that morning.

After all of this, I still loved you & felt we could work it out. So when I hit the lotto for 10 million dollars, I quit my job & bought us 2 tickets to Jamaica But when I got home you were gone.. Everything happens for a reason, I guess.

I hope you have the fulfilling life you always wanted. My lawyer said that the letter you wrote ensures you won’t get a dime from me.

So take care.


Your Ex-Wife, Rich As Hell & Free!

P.S. I don’t know if I ever told you this, but my sister Carla was born Carl. I hope that’s not a problem

Friend In Love ako

Friend In Love ako sayo!!!

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn’t?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn’t?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He’s only a friend, and nothing else–
That’s the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he’s just a bud,
But deep inside, you’re falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn’t right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretned that you don’t care.
It’s “not right” for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he’s just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it’s “wrong” for him to know.
Your friendship can’t be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish…

Always on One-sided love… hirap noh? You hate that feeling diba? Kaso wala kang magagawa… minsan gusto mo siya makasama kaso iba gusto nya makasama, gusto mo sya maka-usap kaso iba kausap nya… at sa tuwing tinititigan mo sya iba naman tinitignan nya… maiisip mo nalang na napaka swerte ng taong nagpapatibok ng puso nya… napakahirap sa puso diba? You’re always wishing for that persons love everyday, kaso hindi naman natutupad… ang sakit, sobrang sakit.. sasabihin ng iba go move on.. makakahanap ka rin ng iba… kaso madali sabihin.. ang hirap gawin.. nakakainis… iisipin mo nalang na sana di mo nalang siya minahal.. kaso wala kang magagawa kasi, nagpakatanga ang puso mo…(arrrgggggggggg!!!!!!!! shit naman heart oh).

Should I smile because we are friends? Or cry because we’ll never be anything more?



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